Guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boys!!                                                                                                                                                          What could i possibly ever say about a normal guy? I don't think there is such a thing. Some guys only want sex out of young girls like myself and some are actually really nice and respectful, however aren't necessarily the "dating type". When you are young (especially girls) you literally know nothing about love, reality, and so much more. Not only do you not know anything you are also naive!!! So, so ,so naive!! Just because he says he loves you doesn't mean a single thing! Everybody says that when their young, but do they know the true definition of "love"... nope! I personally know from experience that just because someone looks like a nice person doesn't mean that they are!  In the beginning of my freshman year of high school i had a boyfriend who was super nice and sweet, we even went to homecoming together. But that relationship was a short train ride, but even though it didn't last long, I was hurt by it because I was NAIVE, I even cried myself to sleep that night,  little did i know at the time that he wasn't the right guy for me and that i wasn't going to marry him. The next boyfriend I had was a guy that was a year older than me and even though we had known each other since the 2nd grade I strongly disliked him then and then he switch form his school to mine and he was super nice and sweet, after about 2 weeks of us being boyfriend and girlfriend he pressured and tried to convince to have sex with him in the music room! That relationship ended quickly as well. The third and final boyfriend I had in the 9th grade was a guy named Louis, and he was kind of a "rebound" from the last relationship I had he made me feel better when the other guy put me down. He was also super nice as well, and it all started after he told me I was "pretty" out of the bus window. After we became boyfriend and girlfriend my parents found out about him and they didn't like him and made me break up with him. I was super sad about it at the time but now I m totally over it. Now looking back on it I see how stupid I was and how dumb i must have looked coming from other peoples perspective. I also see how naive I was, but that's in the past! Now I am nearing the last day of my freshman year and i realize that I made some pretty stupid decisions this year, but all I can do now is help teach other young girls (like my sisters) that just because everyone else has a boyfriend, and just because your in high school doesn't mean you need a boyfriend! Your prince Charming is coming one but for now you need to wait and enjoy being YOU, and don't let others put you down about yourself because of the way you look or the things you do. You are original and YOU can never ever be replaced so until you find a guy that treats you like your the only girl in the world, just be single, its ok to be single you have your whole life a head of you, why would you want to waste it all on something as little as knowing if guys like you or not, the song 15 written by Taylor Swift is sooooo true and you don't realize it until you are put in that situation.

Some days I seriously down way is up or down. I go to school (high school) and i work my butt for and maintain  a 3.5 g.p.a. not to mention I m a varsity cheerleader, but some days it feels like to much and overwhelming and other days it feels like I don't do enough. Being that i m the oldest of five kids(all by the same two people, and no were not Mormon, just a big family) i usually have to pull my own weight around the house after school and cheer-leading i come home and do all my chores that my mother typically asks of me to keep our household clean. I usually get up in the mornings around 6:30 and don't fall into bed till around 11:00 p.m. and I m usually pretty busy during the day, so why do i constantly feel like there s something missing? I have tried to wrap my head around it and figure out what could possibly be missing, I have great friends, great family, and everything i could possibly ever need/want so what could it be? Hmmm.... I' m officially stumped.